Fear.

Fear has to do with the future. In extreme cases, it can petrify a person to point of dysfunction. For me, I become anxious, afraid, worried and I never follow through with any of my plans.

One of the biggest fears I have is the fear of the unknown. I believe it comes from the need to be sure; to have a solid grasp of things. I fear failure, and because I never try, I fail anyway.

I am afraid to fail as a monk. I am afraid to fail in as a teacher. So I never try. Which means I have failed.

This year, I will try. I will take risks. I will have faith. God will take care of me. I need only ask.